I'm starting to get those "memories blues", as I go through all my stuff. I realize that most of the crap that I have is junk, but...of course I want to keep most of it. There's lots of stuff to sell, but it's really a matter of finding somewhere to put it while I sell it. I expect I'll store it at my Mom's place and do a garage sale rather than spend the money trying to sell it on Fleabay.
Right now I'm feeling rather low - I've got so much packing to do that I am really overwhelmed by it all. So much clothing! The plastic bags alone are going to fill my storage space. Hubby has entire closets of clothing that he doesn't wear but won't part with. I, on the other hand have on half closet of stuff. Usually it's the woman who has more clothes! Even my Mom recognises that I'm not very clothing-object attached. I can readily drop everything (except my violin) and just get on without...and I've never been one to go shopping for "stuff". I'm too utilitarian. If it doesn't suit a purpose, I don't buy it.
After talking with a friend I'm feeling better about having to move into "interim" housing. Apparently a lot of people out here have to do it while saving for a new apartment. My anger is that neither Hubby's nor my Mom will allow us to stay with them. We're married, quiet, and have some cats. Big whoopee! Their main concern is that their lives will be disrupted. I don't see it that way. I can clean, cook, work, and provide conversation that is lively, I can entertain, take care of their animals (both dogs and cats) and can do much-needed repairs in their homes for free. I spackle, sheetrock, do cabinet repair, and general maintenance. It would be a boon to anyone to have me around. If I were them, I'd be happy to have my children back for a short time. Considering the lack of time in their lives (they're all getting up there) they should be looking to spend more time with the kids. Life is short. When they're on their deathbeds, will they be thinking, "Jeez...I should have helped them while I could. I feel guilty about that." Why feel guilty today as well as later? Why not do the right thing instead of being selfish about their "quiet time"?
I think it's dealing with my Hubby that worries them. He can be kind of combatant and self-absorbed at times. He also hurls insults like they are jokes, but...it's not funny. I do know he'd try to behave himself for a week or two, but it would soon diminish into insults and crankiness.
Oh...I didn't mention - we're moving into his sister's house in the meantime. Now she's playing that motherly role that our parent should be, and she also seems to be looking out for me. I feel good about that. I honestly think that we'll get along famously, and I think she senses that too. She's a strong woman. I know she'll be a good influence on me for standing up for my rights and learning to say "no" (which is something I rarely do).
Well, I've got 24 hours to really pack everything up and store it before I find out when I need to be out of here (what day exactly) so I'd better get back to packing.
Wish me and my husband luck...we need it for ourselves, for our budding business, and for the future.
I may not be accessing this page for a week or so while things are in transition. Don't worry about me - I'll be back on before you know it.
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