After The Spike

 I'm laying on my bed in my silent bedroom, listening to the dog as she cleans herself as though she is a huge cat. 

It's Sunday, God's day of rest. My Urgent Care has forced all of us to take this day off because of lost, sick personnel. In this way they can concentrate the workers that are somewhat healthy to work on the days that we are open. 

The spike in Florida has deflated. In my own county, it's leaking air slowly. Less and less patients arrive, but the ones we see are sicker. Three or four in one day were transferred to the ER, and my happiness over the new antiviral has waned. It will be Christmas before it will be available. Thousands in Florida will die before it's here. Sure, there are monoclonal antibodies, but those will no longer be plentiful thanks to rationing. It doesn't matter, though, if people keep deluding themselves into thinking they've just got a bad cold. They wait too long - anything over a week could render the antibodies useless. 

I'm sad now. Not because the spike is over, but because the media is only interested in spreading stories about how low the numbers are going. It's last year all over again. Reading my accounts here from that year are telling. I kept warning and warning about the variants. Nobody paid attention, and here we are on the back end of a spike, already grinning about a healthy November. My quotes from patients "I sat between two positive people at the Thanksgiving table!" will be ringing in my ears soon enough. 

The people of the US (and Florida in particular) spent 2 years of  ignoring safety guidelines. The CDC made a tremendous mistake by saying that vaccinated people could go without masks. Nobody wants to do the right thing. 

We'll see another variant soon. It's inevitable. As Delta dies out, another will take its place. I'm almost entirely exhausted by it. 

My rent went up four months ago, from the $1200 that I couldn't afford to $1400. My credit has taken a bashing. I owe about $2000 in credit and loans. I'm done with surviving. I want to thrive. 

I'm going to try to get by as a contact tracer. I'm also resolved to take up writing, though I haven't a lot of time. I give myself a month before things go bonkers. I have to sell anything I can to hold onto this place. 

My landlord also discovered that I have a dog, so I have to tread lightly. Not sure. 

I need a change. I need something. My heart is weary, my spirits down, my rent and electric are due. I'm sad.